Thursday, August 27, 2009

3 miesiace

juz jest Isabel w szpitalu Bridgpoint + 1 miesiac w szpitalu St. Joseph = 4 miesiace. Literatura mowi, ze pacjent z rakiem trzustki zyje 3-6 miesiecy. Dr. Graig ze szpitala Princess Margaret powiedzial nam, ze srednio wedlug statystyk szpitalnych pacjent z rakiem trzustki, nawet przyjmujac chemioterapie zyje 4 miesiace.

Tak jak ja nie moge przyjac faktu, ze Isabel umiera, tak ona nie moze przyjac faktu, ze jest kaleka. Zyjemy w dwoch roznych swiatach. Z tym, ze ja musze tez zyc jej swiatem. Jestem jej oczami, motorem do pchania wozka, pomocna reka przy toalecie, karmieniu, ubieraniu. Zyje dwa zycia. Swoje i jej.

Dzisiaj z rana troszke posprzatalem (odkurzylem + umylem kibel + przynioslem troche ksiazek z sauny).



KSIAZKI PRZYNIESIONE Z SAUNY

* Frederic Copleston, S.J., "A History of Philosophy", IMAGE BOOKS, New York, 1962.
* Alberto Villoldo and Erik Jendresen, "The Four Winds A Shaman's Odyssey into the Amazon", HarperCollins Publishers, New York, 1990.
* "The Quran Translated Message for Humanity" (http://www.icsfp.com/).
* Edward Soltys, Benedykt Heydenkorn, "Trwanie w walce. Kulturowa analiza SPK w Kanadzie", Canadian Polish Research Institute, Toronto 1992.
* Jadwiga Jurkszus-Tomaszewska, "Kronika Piecdziesieciu Lat. Zycie kulturalne polskiej emigracji w Kanadzie 1940-1990", Kanadyjsko-Polski Instytut Badawczy, Toronto 1995.
* Edited by Edward Soltys & Rudolf K. Kogler, "Half a century of Canadian Polish Congress", Canadian Polish Research Institute, Toronto.
* Ewa Morawska, Benedykt Heydenkorn, Rudolf Kogler, "Poles in Toronto", Futura Graphics Inc., Toronto 1982.
* Kenneth N. Smith & Robert J. Prouse, "Canadian Private Security Manual Revised Edition", CARSWELL, Toronto 1989.
* Edited by Benedykt Heydenkorn, "A Community in Transition. The Polish Group in Canada", Canadian Polish Research Institute, Toronto 1985.
* Michael Kay, "Change on the Run. Competing through e-leadership", JOHN WILEY & SONS CANADA, LTD, Etobicoke 2000.
* Oscar Ratti, Adele Westbrook, "Secrets of the Samurai", CASTLE BOOKS, Edison 1999.
* Colonel John B. Alexander, U.S. Army (retired), "Future War. Non-lethal weapons in twenty-first-century warefare", ST.MARTIN'S PRESS, New York 1999).
* Lynn Zimmer, Ph.D., John P. Morgan, M.D., "Marijuana myths Marijuana facts. A review of the scientific evidence", GOTHAM CITY PRINTING, INC., New York 1997.
* Grace Halsell, "Prophecy and Politics. The secret alliance between Israel and the U.S. Christian right", LAWRENCE HILL BOOKS, Chicago 1986.
* Jozef Lindmajer, Teresa Machura, Zygmunt Szultka, "Dzieje Ustki", SLUPSK 1985.
* Thomas de Quincey, "Confessions of an English opium eater", PENGUIN BOOKS.


03:00 Hrs. Budze sie. Zimno. Siusiu + lyk wody + zamykam okna i przykrywam sie ekstra kocem.

05:19 Hrts. Budze sie. Siusiu + lyk wody.

07:45 Hrs. Pije szklanke wody strukturowanej na pusty zoladek.

07:49 Hrs. Badam stezenie cukru we krwi. 5.2 mmol/L.

07:53 Hrs. Podnosze z werandy "National Post" (www.nationalpost.com) z "From runt of the letter to liberal lion. Ted Kennedy's death at age 77 brings to an end an American political dynasty" na okladce + "Toronto Sun" (www.torontosun.com) z "Heartburn 'red tape" is ruining Toronto's A la Cart program" na okladce. Na dworze 13-stopniowo. Temp. w kuchni 21.2C.

08:00 Hrs. Lektura tronowa. "Maclean's" (www.macleans.ca).

As for drugs, Annie claims there were so many around the Cirque that it could have been called the biggest pharmaceutical operation in Quebec. "Whatever your drug of choice was, there would be a clown, a technician, or a performer to supply it." She's amazed that so many performers were able to carry out their audacious circus acts stoned. Annie explains that backstage before a show, while the audience was piling into the tent, people were running around like crazy, half-naked, excited, and stoned out of their minds or, like her, having last-minute sex. "We'd barely have time to catch our breath," she says. "You disengage and then head right on stage. I liked to live on the edge. But I think everyone in Cirque lived that way" (Brian Bethune, "Sex, Drugs & Acrobats", MACLEAN'S, June 15, 2009).

08:36 Hrs. Wskakuje na wage APSCO. 79 kg.

13:06 Hrs. Wychodze z domu do szpitala. Slonecznie. 19-stopniowo. Temp. w kuchni 21.8C. Wiatr. Jem pomidora + chrupie rzodkiewki. Petro-Canada na rogu ulicy bierze za litr paliwa $0.96.4.

13:15 Hrs. W wagoniku metra. 23 osoby + "24 hours" z "Students still not making the grade" na okladce + Tajemnice swiatla.

13:43 Hrs. W tramwaju 504. Pelen + bol w prawym boku.

13:50 Hrs. W szpitalu.

22:38 Hrs. Wychodze ze szpitala. Isabel zasnela. Bylo duzo placzu. Isabel tez wziela komunie sw. Wyglada na to, ze da sie zalatwic odnowienie naszych slubow w szpitalu. Przy wyjsciu czestuje sie magazynem "Now" (www.nowtoronto.com) z "T.O.'s tech crash. Will our city make the upgrade?" na okladce + przewodnik po Toronto International Film Festiwal (www.tiff.net/thefestival).

22:43 Hrs. W tramwaju 505. 6 osob.

22:53 Hrs. W wagoniku metra. Pelen + "Eye Weekly" (www.eyeweekly.com) z "Nine inch nails" na okladce.

23:15 Hrs. W domu. Na dworze chlodnawo. 18-stopniowo. Temp. w kuchni 21.3C.

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